HAPPY FEET PART TWO

A couple of days agoI shared about watching the movie Happy Feet, then a few days later after doing so I just saw myself with Theapoty in Pure Pleasure...well it's a foot spa center on Pluto Street....its time to pamper ourselves since there are a lot of things going...basically with our lives. I realized that its ben a while since I treated myself fairly and indeed the foot spa is a reward. Though my budget is tight I guess that little time I had on the spa center won't hurt that much...*grin*

I wanted to feel frustrated with a lot of things but I guess there are more serotonin in my body that i was unable to feel what i should be feeling...or I was just tired of being frustrated that I chose to be just..fine.

There are a lot of things i wanted to do and to learn but I guess God is really teaching me to foucs whether or not I am in the path I really did not intended to be * shucks...am I making sens at all?!* but nweiz, speaking in metapohor, I am like on a situation where I badly needed to be on diet but there is no other food available and I  was offered with the my favorite pasta dish and I am of the dilemma of eating it or not thuogh my stomach is ready to have holes...( though it do happen in my real life...darn...reality really bites!) and if a person can incure any disease from having such many dilemmas I would be a Hall of Famer for that..hehehe....but the thing is sometimes even if we don't "want" that we have no other choice but eat the the "pasta" (now that made my statementa lot more confusing...*pout*)

Well I guess I am just putting it this way... I even need carbo sometimes ( even if I consider this food group evil*grin*) so does in my life...just for me to learn a lot more than I can imagine...God knows what's best for His children and I can't wait to fulfill whatever plans He has for me.*confetti*

So there...just al ittle sharing since I've been away for a couple of months from my blog site.. I hope I can put some pictures next time.

One bit of advice..do have some Pure Pleasure sometimes. Jus like what I and Theapoty did. A Happy Feet at Pluto Street! ( isn't that cute..it rhymes..hehehe) 

WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS

I really waited for this day...*just to use the title of my Blog*...hehehe...but aside from that i believe i will be really waken from the mere fact that it is October already...and nothing...and nothing...as in I'm not speaking figuratively right now everyone...seems to be happening with my so called semi charmed life. *sigh* Now, more because our dearly beloved President Gloria Arroyo has declared a "retake" on our very controversial Nursing Licensure exam...i bet you heard about it already....well...the issue is of course stigmatized. tsk tsk tsk..but nweiz, i just need to start picking up my brain cells again and let it function for the sake of my future, but the assurance of passing the board exam  again?...i  have no idea... Oh Dear Lord, help me.

But aside from that, there are other things i needed to do and try to focus on (aside from cleaning my crib), and October seems to be a great month..isn't it?

he really looks familiar...

napadaan lang ako...hehehe...

TITULO

it was never my exact plan nor i imagined myself in that field...but God lead me there..and after spending another THREE YEARS taking up the course...finished it and kept the FAITH (kahit na dinudugo na ang utak ko sa kakaaral)...and after months of reviewing and even if it seems i needed a miracle to pass the *hello? earth* board exam last June 11- 12, 2006.....

GOD KEPT HIS PROMISE..

and a MIRACLE did happened!

MAURELLE MERCADO CASUYON, REGISTERED NURSE!!!

THANK YOU to all who prayed with me...its not on my own.

TO GOD BE THE GREATER GLORY.

(todo na toh!) SO BLESSED I CAN'T CONTAIN IT!

TWO THUMB STORY

 

*phone rang*....she seemed surprised...and she pressed the answer button....after a second she has spoken..."Hello"...a moment of silent...and the other line through the wonders of technology transmitted the message from the other side..."Hello"

Three long years....she just smiled. Still can't believe she is hearing this...and the three long years just seemed to be three minutes...perhaps...three seconds...she then thought..."NOTHING HAS CHANGED".

do i know where I am going to...

 

*sigh*...i really don't know where I am headed right now...too many roads to travel..but still i don't have a ticket to any....*sigh*

the bench

 

I was walking towards the park and i sat on the bench..i placed the icewater  i bought beside me and i enjoyed the ice cream I am eating...at least i enjoyed the ice cream! grr..and it all came back to me...

and the question still lingers.." why do i keep on loving you?" and whoosshh..flashback...a while ago i found myself running into a bridge away from a situation i cannot bear...just that..

I just have to be away from that scenario or else ill burst into tears or in madness? hmm...

Some people...they really are too insensitive...or am i just being so stupid..*sigh*

Thus i finished my last bite...*the icewater already melted*...and i picked it up, left the bench and went home

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.
- Dr. Meridith Grey

 

am i back?

>www.multipy.com *click*

> typed my username and password *click*

> *so here iam trying to live the normal life again after months of sacrifices*

>blog?!

> perhaps next time...

what do we have here?!

    *whoooossshhh* i got my POWERS BACK!!!
                        -hair by Menage Salon-

MANIC TUESDAY

WHoa...what a day..MAY 16,2006...24 hours and there were a lot of things that happened today:
to start ,i woke up with a not soo good news bout a friend *sniff* but then afterwards i prepared for schooll..not actually school-school but i have to furnish some important stuffs at the Philippine Regulatory Commission for me to take the June Boards..but hey i still dont have the adequate requirements so far that's why i need to go to my, should i say, 2nd alma mater...

En route manila *STATE OF SHOCK* ..of all things, i forgot my TOR receipt, i just would like to kill myself * knife please* but i realized i was already in Morayta...so i have no choice but to text my classmate and maybe perhaps a promisory note can compensate for -me being so deng stufeed- but ofcourse the registrar won't allow...*ting* " Oh well, my TOR is not yet done...perhaps 2morow.." but i dont have the "tommorrow"...i need to get it today so i can pass it "tommorrow"

*&(*&#@%&* <- that is my stomach...im hungry..and i saw my, oh well "Real Alma Mater"
" I missed FEU" *nose becoming longer*..so i thought about "TAYUMAN" the chain of carinderia inside the campus and decided to eat there, it has been a while...

So the Sanggre entered the premises...*waitahmean-it" a lot of things changed,i mean witha capital L-O-T...to cut it short, FEU has gone better than i thought...*smirk* unfair!!!

SO i toured myself...visit the CHAPEL where we usually hang out before- YFC family-
I even went to my Institute and visited some good old friends there -social stuffs...my professors, secretariat...you know what i mean...and of course ate at TAYUMAN...food haven't change..i loved the BEEF OYSTER SAUCE they got and the MELON juice..and last stop, where i usually study * yeah right* the LIBRARY..oohh yeah..where i always find my spot and then zzzZZZZZ SLEEF...hehehe...i got an ALMUNI permit to use the facilities...( i decided to study at the FEU library after reviews so i can actually FOCUS.) And my work is done at my alma mater..so much for that..

In short i got home again to fetch my oh so cute "TOR receipt" and wen back to Manila to the college of NUrsing of metropolitan hospital, and there...i stayed and waited and waited and waited until time runs out..it is 9:00 PM and they aren't releasing any of the 236 TOR!!!!
* hello!!!! anybody here* ...and praise God, they heard us and 'klabam* to my other batchmates...many got typographical errors *Helloo again...no room for errors now please*

One thing why i really love being in the community is that many Brothers and SIsters are there to help you in times of need...and i needed to notarize my stuff *time check: 9:15PM * Where in paradise would i look for a very patient attorney to get my things notarized?! * clueless*..and so i texted some and big help they did reply...but shameful of me to disturbed the attorney's peaceful rests..God heard my prayers and we found out that someone can notarize early in the morning - May 17,2006...*calmed down*

After the walk there, walk here and everywhere i finally landed at AVENETO where my very GOrgeous household is gathered...we shared fun.and oh yes i ate almost all the seafood pasta *burp* ..hehehe...at the end of the day its nice to know there are these wonderful ladies you can just sit with and just listen to their stories...

*click* Camera pose and we are done...i got another story to tell butit will be on my next multiply moment...NUMBER SEVEN..hmmm... i think i can handle that * chuckle*

Thanks for reading this far.... this is just my thing...is it long already? sorry...its just me..bloggin'..i L-O-V-E BLOGGIN'.

Goodnight!

COMA

Well it is though a medical TERM..and it is not good news to any significant other to hear such word from a medical doctor telling that a client is on COMA. That is in the medical field...

But sometimes i thought of it as a good escape..just for the meantime whenever things aren't working the way i "want" it..a hibernation thing i guess...

See, you won't be feeling anything, not even a clue of what's happening around you though the sense of hearing is still effective.DEEP COMA...that's what i need right at this very moment.

Then again..reality...i still don't want to encounter that state. I may never wake up again...

*breeze*

STILL..still!

 *sigh* just can't help but worship God whenever I am feeling anxious.Ang sarap ng feeling pag alam mong God will be there whenever you call upon His name and we just need to trust his plans for us...

Still

Words and Music by Reuben Morgan



Hide me now

Under your wings

Cover me

within your mighty hand



When the oceans rise and thunders roar

I will soar with you above the storm

Father you are king over the flood

I will be still and know you are God



Find rest my soul

In Christ alone

Know his power

In quietness and trust

 

 

A Grace

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACIE!
- i found a real sister in her...we as Sang'gres are rare species...*wink*
we could talk for hours...non- stop! I think that's one of our innate powers *confetti*
Thank God I met you!

i could still remember a year ago..well its your birthday again...how does it happened?*clueless* hehehe...iam missin you so much gurl..its been months i guess when we last saw each other...tinulugan mo me sa Capitol eh.hehe...nweiz, treat me after my boards ok? Love you!

I love this pic by the way--->

ANXIOUS ME

ang taas na ng anxiety level ko...i'll be taking up the June board exam ( pag naayos lahat ng papers) and december is not (yet) an option so far..pero im still on the process of compiling my notes...hmm...but before i officially start my review ,NUeva Ecija muna toh...so excited na talaga kami for our Kalinga Luzon. perhaps to any other blogger who'll read this blog...madami pang kasunod toh...*STRESS reliever* ko ata toh eh..hehehe...

TODAY

03.21.05 before my twisted sunshine sets down

 

Today, I found myself growing in  love with you.  Didn’t you know you are my twisted sunshine? Even just seeing you makes me smile. You steal my mind, if not occupying almost half of my lobe. I came to know you each and everyday. But the question remains, would you love me for me or more tragic never love me at all.

 

Your eyes reflect your soul. I may not always look at it at times but it doesn’t mean I lie. Perhaps I am afraid that I wouldn’t be able to see my reflection on it. But your eyes..dont you know its beautiful.

 

Your smile. It weakens me every time, praying those are for mine. It makes me feel better when I make you laugh. When can your laughter be mine? But really your smile, its beautiful.

 

Your voice. So manly yet I can sense the enthusiasm and the sincerity of it, as it  speaks a lot of things and it opens you heart to me. Loving you inch by inch…When can your voice speaks of me. But that thing, its even beautiful.

 

You. You are beautiful. I hope you knew that because I do.

 

And  You…

 

When can you love me too.

 

Perchance ever after will never come.

 

…snivel….

FINALE

0426H

and my twisted sunshine

has came to its end....

RUBBISH

02.25.05 tres en punto por la mañana

As my key intertwined with the lock,

split seconds and I heard 'it"talking...

 

CORAZON,

STOP IT!

Such foolish one! You know very well his heart  throbs for someone else

It was just your neurons that deceive you.

It is not fair, you deserve the best.

Don’t you Dare FALL in love

The past FALL had been tragic

STOP that or you’ll end up bleeding again.

Yo le cuido de,

MENTE

 And it answered...

 

MENTE,

You now very well too,  I wont throb without you

You are the one who interprets the message of our neurons

I wanted to GROW in love as much as you do

How could I stop…if you won’t stop?

We are one, we knew the same thing,

Love Matters. The man is our twisted sunshine

Thus, you and I perhaps will  continue on believing…

That all is fair in LOVE.

cuido más,

    CORAZON

 

I opened our gate, im not hearing anything more.

And my heart continues to beat and my mind told me to get some sleep.

 

 

 

 

 

THANK YOU MY DEAREST CUZ - LOVELLA

Just wanna share with you how blessed I am to have a "DYOSA" cuzin like mine..moreover a family as such...

Her birthday message for me ...hmm..kelan kaya ang gift..hehehe

DIFFERENCE IS SIMILAR

we are the same because we are different...

we are different but we have the same name...

we are different but the blood is the same...

we are different because we are.


where the bi@tc^h proclaimed...
where the diosa existed...
where GORGEOUS became...
where musicians played...
where singers sang
where mountaineers climbed...
where teachers taught...
where dancers bounced...
where transferees transferred...
where police caught...
where nurses nursed...
where sailors sailed...
where drinkers drink...
where smokers smoked...
where the children laughed...

where we hit, kill, hate, hug, accept, care, love, cherrish, and share each other all at the same time...

where we became...

CASUYON...

where we are the same different ones all together...

love me - hate me

it's all the same...

casuyon - this is where you and i belong



-to the one and only gorgeous in the casuyon clan... happy birthday....-

 

before the Day breaks - "INDIAN"

02.24.06 -

as the light illuminates our faces

i can sense the mysterious feeling within me

as my metacarpals touches the edges of your hair

an unexplainable emotion wanted to escape

i smiled

plausibly...its the ultaviolet rays

The Big Ocean of Air

 

 

 

 

on hearts' eve -02.13.06

underneath the moonlight

i can hear the screams

the butterflies in my stomach

the ups and downs

the swirls and turns

the wave of the air as it drowns me in despair

in your tentacle of love..

I found peace.

 

 

 

NOW ( tagged from my mail to my SFC family)

 

2100H 01.21.06

 

" Sana nandun ako sa chapter assembly ngayon...." That's all I am thinking about but with some reasons I didn't  made it..actually really, I cannot make it." So i just started to check my unread mails and it caught my attention...

 

 

RESTORE ME, O LORD -- Psalm 51:12 

Restore to me the joy of your salvation
       and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. 

 

 

It went straight into my very system, hitting directly my heart and my soul...Where did I stop? Why such feeling of misery despite all God's plan and promises for me...such little faith...such a stubborn daughter of God....how could i make it up to Him... and i go on reading the reflection....

 

"How is your relationship with the Lord doing?  Do you feel close and warm and intimate with Him?  Are you filled with the wonder and awe and joy of your salvation?  Or do you have trouble praying?  Do you find it difficult to relate anything in your life to Jesus?  Do things that once filled you with a deep feeling of regret, of guilt, of righteous anger, now create no reaction in you at all?  When you say the name Jesus, does it leave you cold where it once made your heart leap with joy?  When you see our country turning more and more away from God, does it bother you?  Or have you started to agree with all those "politically correct" views that seem so humane, so logical, so human?  Has sin in your life driven a larger and larger wedge between you and God?  Does the gulf between you seem so wide you'll never get across it? 

That's how David felt when he wrote this Psalm.  So very far from God, not only in his actions, but in his heart.  The joy was gone.  The warmth, the intimacy, the deep feelings of affection were gone.  But he remembered them.  He remembered the closeness he had shared with God all his life, the feelings of joy his many victories in the Lord had given him.  He remembered what he had once experienced with God.  And he wanted it back. 

You can do the same thing.  You, like David, can ask God to help you come back to a close relationship with Him.  You, like David, can have the joy of your salvation restored.  All you have to do is ask.  He's waiting.  Why don’t you do it right now… "

 

Yes. NOW.

He is really a boy...

There HE goes...

I just tagged my dear Amy's blog. It is very nice. Me and Amy just used to go to school together on our service...and now..time really is fast....She'll be having CALEB, Her first baby!

 

It'a a boy

Last Thursday, I went to the clinic to take a peek at the baby.  The whole experience was a lot of fun!  No wonder Tom Cruise bought his own sonogram machine.

You can see EVERYTHING -- the brain and spine freaked me out a little, plus you can see the heart actually beating.  But everything else was fun.  I saw the baby waving his hands, kicking like crazy (he looked like he was dancing - mana sa mommy & daddy!), tossing and turning and the fun part, the baby was covering its....you know what... with its hands para you won't be able to guess what it is.

But after a while, the baby gave in, let go of the hands, and tah-dah...it's a boy!  My husband was so happy (or should I say relieved?--hahaha!).

His name is Caleb Sikking Lanzuela, and he'll be seeing all of you on june.  He's a BIG baby for someone who's only 4 months, so please pray for me too that it'll all be easy. 

God has been so good.  Caleb isn't due until June, and already the apartment is filling up with Caleb's stuff.  We're already thinking of moving to a bigger apartment, but we're also praying about it.  If God says move, then we'll move.  Gotta pray about the additional security deposit.  Then again, I'm not worried, because my God provides, He always does.

CRY BABY

 

 

01.08.06

0800H

 

I should be rejoicing. I could finally rest. I could even fix my crib and I could surf the net any time I want.  The usual things I am doing before my dad and brothers arrived.

 

They left early this morning, back to California. Time swept fast. A month was over and they have no choice but to return abroad. Tears were flowing like running water into my cheeks as I saw them walking away from us. I could barely breathe.

 

I  miss them already.

 

Realization: Time is really PRECIOUS.

 

Thank you Lord Jesus for the gift called FAMILY.

WARRANTY

12.16.05

 

 ( I just remembered a conversation with a friend of mine)

 

Sweet: Malas yata talaga ako ah..badtrip!

Angelo: Bakit naman?

Sweet: talaga yatang di ako swerte sa mga gamit

Angelo: hahaha..lahat na lang nasisira noh..kagaya nang Ipod mo.( even my cellphone, my digicam etc....and i believe more to come)

Sweet: Grabe, kaya tuloy pati buhay ko magulo

Angelo: ano ka ba, MAY WARRANTY naman!

 

*The last line just left me reflecting …oo nga naman…sino nga ba ang warranty ko..Si Christ. He died for me. Hindi lang basta -bastang warranty..an assurance that whatever it is I am experiencing here on earth is nothing compare to what I can  experience in eternal life. Astig talaga si Kristo. AngWarranty ng Buhay ko.

 

St. James Overpass

12.23.05

I always wanted to take a picture of this view. It moved me in a certain way. Ewan ko ba, para kaseng everytime im passing  this bridge nahahati yong mundo ko…parang transition into somewhere else…weird talaga.