Luna

I just can’t keep my eyes off her.


Sometimes we forget the little things that calm us down and tonight I remember one.

A friend of mine sent me a message the other day, never thought he would know Luna too. My friend said Luna was almost full and it’s a clear night sky. I could tell, I was outside my humble home in Batangas , taking pleasure in the wind that touches my hair and when I looked up, there she was peaceful as ever.

Tonight, is another wonder. She’s back and now staring boldly at me. I was quite uncomfortable at first knowing I’m just a modest creature in her vision. I planned to stay a couple of minutes outside just to be aware of her presence, prowl in her beauty and marvel in her brilliance. She illuminates my gloomy night. She made me remember to dream again. Just like how she affects the tidal waves, her pure reflection affects my sentiment. Oh yes, in old folk stories people gone mad when the moon is full; I say count me in!. I do not become a shape shifter or a beautiful vampire thirsty for blood but I seem to go on trance.

Tonight, I stared at her longer than usual not realizing that my tear ducts started producing salty water. I blinked..1..2..3 and snuffle a deep one and put down my elbows on the concrete surface of my veranda and just like in  most old Disney movies – a princess in the window of her castle , I started to have a conversation with Luna. I could almost imagine my feet touching her ground even  floating in all directions. I asked her questions, those that I don’t know the answers. Questions that linger in my wits every single day, those that put me into sleep most of the nights but still waking up clueless . Now, I’m waiting for her response, just like a little girl anticipating for her piece of sunshine. Maybe I’m waiting for that whisper from her Creator, the One that really kept me alive all these years of my life. The One whom I owe whatever simple joys I’m experiencing every day. I waited and still can’t hear her, but I could sense her gaze towards me. I suddenly imagined a lightning path connecting us, just like a scene from a favorite cartoon show I used to watched, I decided to close my eyes  as I witness the patches of clouds passing right in front of  her and then I murmured... “Give me hope!”

Tonight was a  brief moment but it was special and I began to hope again and pray that someone on the other side of the universe is also looking at her, awed in her beauty and majesty and perhaps saying his own simple prayers.

I once dreamed  of landing in the moon. That occasion may never come to reality but I would look forward of seeing her every night in the coming days, shining brightly in her own rights and hopefully side by side with Rey and Evangeline.

She is not a supernova, but a damsel of faith, trust and pixie dust! Now, I know I can fly.

She is Luna.


(According to astronomers,  stargazers will have a chance to see the last of this year’s exceptional blue moon phenomenon, Tuesday - March 30, 2010.)

101 small pleasures

While composing this, we experienced earthquake (intensity 6) here in PI, it made me realized (again and again) that anytime,in a snap, our life on earth is over. So, take the risk, don't be consumed with sadness and just be happy!

I got this from www.shine.com, one of my fave everyday blog about anything under the sun.

101 small pleasures you can enjoy everyday... I somehow edited the list to suit my personality, will add more when light bulb strikes or when new experiences pops in!

1. coloring (yes, grown-ups can do it, too)
2. crisp cotton sheets
3. soft skin
4. old family recipes
5. tulips
6. sleeping in
7. an exercise endorphin high
8. window boxes
9. a perfect cup of coffee
10. a genuine compliment (giving or receiving)
11. the way babies smell ( micah is my favorite toy right now)
12. a handwritten letter ( i miss those days)
13. waking up in a good mood...for no real reason
14. singing in the shower ( ..and I can't fight this feeling anymore...)
15. finding a couple forgotten peso in your pocket
16. doing something nice for your neighbor
17. a home cooked meal
18. laughing ( to the point of crying)
19. beauty regimen before sleep
20. popping bubble wrap
21. a bubble bath
22. swimming
23. an afternoon nap
24. street musicians
25. your favorite song
26. saying thank you
27. helping someone in need
28. old fashioned photo booths ( or polaroid)
29. yogurt!!!! (qoola, red mango, TWH)
30. inspiring blogs
31. a glass of wine ( while dining in RACKS)
32. rainy afternoons
33. the funny things kids say
34. a novel you can get lost in
35. finding the perfect piece of clothing...on sale
36. clean laundry ( the smell of my LAVANDERA washed clothes)
37. the wind in your hair
38. treating the person behind you at the drive-thru
39. sharing an umbrella ( did it once, wanna do it again)
40. the smell of early morning fresh-baked pandesal
41. a long walk that clears your head
42. a bear hug ( Brando!)
43. The Beatles
44. smiling at a stranger
45. eating with chopsticks (Chinese food optional)
46. butterflies
47. staying in your pj's all day
48. singing along to the radio and knowing all the words
49. fresh herbs
50. ordering in pizza
51. happy endings...even if they're fictional
52. flying a kite
53. puppies
54. running ( in the rain)
55. holding open the door...
56. ...or having someone hold the door for you *blush*
57. CBTL/Starbucks tea time
58. white, fluffy towels
59. sunshine / sunrise/sunset
60. spending an afternoon at a museum
61. really great advice
62. green lights all the way home ( highway 54 can you hear this?!)
63. the sound of rain hitting the windows
64. sitting in a booth
65. holding hands
66. a great hair day with no effort
67. seeing a rainbow
68. when someone falls asleep with their head on your shoulder
69. fireflies
70. the perfect taco
71. prayer
72. slow dancing
73. blue sky with puffy clouds
74. cheesy, uplifting musicals / worship
75. great stories
76. the smell of gasoline
77. kismet moment
78. love letters
79. old friends...
80. ...new friends
81. a good read
82. a good shot of Peaches
83. sitting at the counter at an old-fashioned diner
84. using your favorite dishes
85. doodles
86. anything blueberry
87. flossing
88. kissing and hugging someone you love
89. the smell of onions and garlic cooking
90. hot chocolate
91. jumping in puddles
92. old photographs
93. birds hopping on the sidewalk
94. Jericho Rosales and John Lloyd Cruz moments
95. Italian pasta
96. your softest t-shirt
97. a new magazine
98. fireplaces
99. having exact change
100. bacon and pancakes cooking on Saturday morning
101. good night sleep

update on my differential diagnosis

RE: http://gorgeousweet.multiply.com/journal/item/184/my_differential_diagnosis

Well it's more than a week already,  i wanna review my declarations and check if somehow, I  improved :)

1. A Morning routine -
     well aside from taking a bath and casual breakfast I'll move my prayer time in the morning, 15 minutes to pray, reflect, worship and read the Bible - so far so good, I missed some days but I made sure to do in later in the day, it gives me energy and affirmation that yeah, everything will run smoothly throughout that day! 
2. Laugh more often - and it is the best vitamin! 
3. Don't take things personally - thoughts and opinions of other people are THEIR thoughts and opinions -  just take in the positive things and you can never go wrong
4. Run - unfortunately I wasn't able to run this week :_( but will make sure to do it this coming days, I'm planning to enroll in adiNation..Who says running is a lonely sport?
5. Take in healthy food - oh yes! you should try it! YOGURT YOGURT YOGURT!!!! no to junk food! 
4. Consistency and Time Management - FAIL.. will do my best to practice it more often, do not let House DVD in sight to resist temptation! 
5. Being Proactive - yes yes, I'm thinking of, well, not so distant future now, consequences of my actions and what could make a project work! 
6. Act of Random Kindness - I started with SMILING, and not pushing ladies in the MRT station
7. Less Facebooking ( not every hour, maybe every 2 hours) - dum dum.. im still working on this one..I just can't help it! darn.

8. Set a specific number of hours to wander the cyberworld most especially in checking emails - i do it during lunch break and after office hours, but err need to manage it pa! 
9. Read more inspiring books - almost done with Power of Simple prayers.. Im currently reading Acts 
10.LOVE - the greatest of all :) let's spread the love virus!!! There's no antidote! 

my differential diagnosis

One thing  i observe about myself... I complicate things
I have a "complication syndrome" <- i just made that up
Even if things are complicated already, i worsen it
How I wish I can just keep things  simple

I'm thinking what's my reason behind this differential diagnosis
perhaps it's because I worry to much...
I worry about what other people will think, say or feel
I worry I would look pathetic in front of them
I worry I look incapable of doing simple things
I worry that I am indeed incapacitated, out of action..laid up

But I'm not! I know I'm not.
There are just some things that stop me from doing things
You know that idea wherein the eye of your heart isn't working
It just wanted to shutdown
It just wanted simple things..some say that you can achieve this if you have inner peace so I guess I have to add more positive vibes in my menu

So I would like to declare some things that I will do, some of it are consolidated ideas I got from different inspiring blogs around the cyber universe

1. A Morning routine -
    well aside from taking a bath and casual breakfast I'll move my prayer time in the morning
     15 minutes to pray, reflect, worship and read the Bible
2. Laugh more often
3. Don't take things personally - thoughts and opinions of other people are THEIR thoughts and opinions
4. Run
5. Take in healthy food in my body
4. Consistency and Time Management
5. Being  Proactive
6. Act of Random Kindness
7. Less Facebooking ( not every hour, maybe every 2 hours)
8. Set a specific number of hours to wander the cyberworld most especially in checking emails
9. Read  more inspiring books
10.LOVE

The list can go on and on and since I also have  FOCUS deficiency syndrome, I  will just start with 10. Besides I can update in anytime :) Let's see,I'll get back to you after a week if there's any improvement and I will surely prescribe this to potential patients afterwards!

signing off,
Startwinkletoes

BALISA

sa kanan-ibabang bahagi ng laptop ko : 11:30PM, pero pagtingin ko sa BB ko 3:51 AM na pala!

Umaatake na naman ang insomnia..bakit nga ba? hindi ako mapalagay nitong mga nakaraang araw...hindi naman ako malungkot, wala naman (siguro) na bumabagabag sakin, pero hindi din ako sobrang saya na nai-imagine ko.

Ano bang meron?&nbsp;

- yung laptop ko kulay puti na tapos may mansanas sa likod na umiilaw, masaya sana pero hindi naman talaga akin kundi sa opisina - medyo depekto pa kaya hindi pa final ang hatol - at least unang blog nakatikim na

- tumakbo ako kanina, 3 ikot sa UP kasama ang mga hayskul friends ( na gradeschool pa lang friends na sila.. gulo noh?) ni Thea, tapos humigop ako ng tomato soup at kumain ng &nbsp;salad sa Chocolate Kiss

- nalipat na ako ng department ( for the nth time) sa wakas, malinaw na daw trabaho ko sa opis..dun na lang daw ako sa simply amazing

-feeling ko busy ako pero hindi ko alam kung saan..alam mo yun.. busy pero sa samu't saring bagay

ayan lang naman yung mga nangyari pero bakit kaya ganto...siguro na miss ko lang mag sulat. ang tagal ko ng nagsulat ng matino.. yung sabi nga nila "mula sa puso", hindi naman ako ganoon kagaling sa english at kahit sa tagalog pero parang may bumubulong sakin na parang tikbalang na "sumulat ka" hayyy sana nga one day isang araw matino na yung masulat ko dito. Siguro nalilito din ako..

yung multiply kase parang masyado ng public

yung blogspot naman masyadong private

yung wordpress naman, nakakailmutan ko na

meron din akong iph,xanga,livejournal at kung ano-ano pa

lately tumblr naman ang kinaadikan ko

kaya siguro wala talaga akong dereksyon

hindi ko naiintindihan ang salitang FOCUS!

ang sakit sa ulo.. pero sige masubukan nga yang pokus na yan!&nbsp;

Alam ko na yung pakiramdam ko ngayon.. para akong kukuha ng tubig sa balon tapos nung ilalag-lag ko na yung timba bigla akong napaisip kung talaga bang may tubig sa balon, kase sayang naman baka mabasag yung timba tapos pinaasa lang ako na may tubig dun..tapos ayun, maghahanap na lang ba &nbsp;ako ng poso, tapos sisiguraduhin kong may tubig? Baka naman may bukas, hintayin ko lang muna.

ang gulo noh? ako din naguguluhan na...baka antok lang talaga ako

O sya, Gandang Umaga, mamayang gabi may deyt ako sa sinehan, kasama ko si Popoy, pero iba na ata pangalan nya dito sa sunod na pelikula. Di ko feel yung plot eh, manloloko kase si Popoy dito, nakakaasiwa tuloy. Hay buhay, parang nalantang mga bulaklak...

BALISA

sa kanan-ibabang bahagi ng laptop ko : 11:30PM, pero pagtingin ko sa BB ko 3:51 AM na pala!

Umaatake na naman ang insomnia..bakit nga ba? hindi ako mapalagay nitong mga nakaraang araw...hindi naman ako malungkot, wala naman (siguro) na bumabagabag sakin, pero hindi din ako sobrang saya na nai-imagine ko.

Ano bang meron? 

- yung laptop ko kulay puti na tapos may mansanas sa likod na umiilaw, masaya sana pero hindi naman talaga akin kundi sa opisina - medyo depekto pa kaya hindi pa final ang hatol - at least unang blog nakatikim na

- tumakbo ako kanina, 3 ikot sa UP kasama ang mga hayskul friends ( na gradeschool pa lang friends na sila.. gulo noh?) ni Thea, tapos humigop ako ng tomato soup at kumain ng  salad sa Chocolate Kiss

- nalipat na ako ng department ( for the nth time) sa wakas, malinaw na daw trabaho ko sa opis..dun na lang daw ako sa simply amazing

-feeling ko busy ako pero hindi ko alam kung saan..alam mo yun.. busy pero sa samu't saring bagay

ayan lang naman yung mga nangyari pero bakit kaya ganto...siguro na miss ko lang mag sulat. ang tagal ko ng nagsulat ng matino.. yung sabi nga nila "mula sa puso", hindi naman ako ganoon kagaling sa english at kahit sa tagalog pero parang may bumubulong sakin na parang tikbalang na "sumulat ka" hayyy sana nga one day isang araw matino na yung masulat ko dito. Siguro nalilito din ako..

yung multiply kase parang masyado ng public

yung blogspot naman masyadong private

yung wordpress naman, nakakailmutan ko na

meron din akong iph,xanga,livejournal at kung ano-ano pa

lately tumblr naman ang kinaadikan ko

kaya siguro wala talaga akong dereksyon

hindi ko naiintindihan ang salitang FOCUS!

ang sakit sa ulo.. pero sige masubukan nga yang pokus na yan! 

Alam ko na yung pakiramdam ko ngayon.. para akong kukuha ng tubig sa balon tapos nung ilalag-lag ko na yung timba bigla akong napaisip kung talaga bang may tubig sa balon, kase sayang naman baka mabasag yung timba tapos pinaasa lang ako na may tubig dun..tapos ayun, maghahanap na lang ba  ako ng poso, tapos sisiguraduhin kong may tubig? Baka naman may bukas, hintayin ko lang muna.

ang gulo noh? ako din naguguluhan na...baka antok lang talaga ako

O sya, Gandang Umaga, mamayang gabi may deyt ako sa sinehan, kasama ko si Popoy, pero iba na ata pangalan nya dito sa sunod na pelikula. Di ko feel yung plot eh, manloloko kase si Popoy dito, nakakaasiwa tuloy. Hay buhay, parang nalantang mga bulaklak...

Never Knew I Needed

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RA-6u52VoD8

****first time i heard the song was at the end of the  movie Princess and the Frog, i knew it was Ne-yo! =)
it is such a sweet song perfect for a cute movie, feel good music but truly inspiring and exciting to sing-a-long when we finally find the one****

Never Knew I Needed
For the way you changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction
For the way you took the idea that i have
Of everything that i wanted to have
And made me see there was something missing (oh yeah)

For the ending of my first begin
And for the rare and unexpected friend
For the way you're something that i never choose
But at the same time something i don't wanna lose
And never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

You're the best thing i never knew i needed
So when you were here i had no idea
You're the best thing i never knew i needed
So now it's so clear i need you here always

My accidental happily (ever after oh oh oh)
The way you smile and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
I must admit you were not a part of my book
But now if you open it up and take a look
You're the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

You're the best thing i never knew i needed (oh)
So when you were here i had no idea
You're the best thing i never knew i needed (that i needed)
So now it's so clear i need you here always

Who'd knew that i'd be here (who'd knew that i'd be here oh oh)
So unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)
Undeniably happy (hey)
Said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)
Girl you're the...

You're the best thing i never knew i needed (said i needed oh oh)
So when you were here i had no idea
You're the best thing i never knew i needed (needed oh)
So now it's so clear i need you here always
Baby baby
Now it's so clear i need you here always