NOW ( tagged from my mail to my SFC family)

 

2100H 01.21.06

 

" Sana nandun ako sa chapter assembly ngayon...." That's all I am thinking about but with some reasons I didn't  made it..actually really, I cannot make it." So i just started to check my unread mails and it caught my attention...

 

 

RESTORE ME, O LORD -- Psalm 51:12 

Restore to me the joy of your salvation
       and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. 

 

 

It went straight into my very system, hitting directly my heart and my soul...Where did I stop? Why such feeling of misery despite all God's plan and promises for me...such little faith...such a stubborn daughter of God....how could i make it up to Him... and i go on reading the reflection....

 

"How is your relationship with the Lord doing?  Do you feel close and warm and intimate with Him?  Are you filled with the wonder and awe and joy of your salvation?  Or do you have trouble praying?  Do you find it difficult to relate anything in your life to Jesus?  Do things that once filled you with a deep feeling of regret, of guilt, of righteous anger, now create no reaction in you at all?  When you say the name Jesus, does it leave you cold where it once made your heart leap with joy?  When you see our country turning more and more away from God, does it bother you?  Or have you started to agree with all those "politically correct" views that seem so humane, so logical, so human?  Has sin in your life driven a larger and larger wedge between you and God?  Does the gulf between you seem so wide you'll never get across it? 

That's how David felt when he wrote this Psalm.  So very far from God, not only in his actions, but in his heart.  The joy was gone.  The warmth, the intimacy, the deep feelings of affection were gone.  But he remembered them.  He remembered the closeness he had shared with God all his life, the feelings of joy his many victories in the Lord had given him.  He remembered what he had once experienced with God.  And he wanted it back. 

You can do the same thing.  You, like David, can ask God to help you come back to a close relationship with Him.  You, like David, can have the joy of your salvation restored.  All you have to do is ask.  He's waiting.  Why don’t you do it right now… "

 

Yes. NOW.

He is really a boy...

There HE goes...

I just tagged my dear Amy's blog. It is very nice. Me and Amy just used to go to school together on our service...and now..time really is fast....She'll be having CALEB, Her first baby!

 

It'a a boy

Last Thursday, I went to the clinic to take a peek at the baby.  The whole experience was a lot of fun!  No wonder Tom Cruise bought his own sonogram machine.

You can see EVERYTHING -- the brain and spine freaked me out a little, plus you can see the heart actually beating.  But everything else was fun.  I saw the baby waving his hands, kicking like crazy (he looked like he was dancing - mana sa mommy & daddy!), tossing and turning and the fun part, the baby was covering its....you know what... with its hands para you won't be able to guess what it is.

But after a while, the baby gave in, let go of the hands, and tah-dah...it's a boy!  My husband was so happy (or should I say relieved?--hahaha!).

His name is Caleb Sikking Lanzuela, and he'll be seeing all of you on june.  He's a BIG baby for someone who's only 4 months, so please pray for me too that it'll all be easy. 

God has been so good.  Caleb isn't due until June, and already the apartment is filling up with Caleb's stuff.  We're already thinking of moving to a bigger apartment, but we're also praying about it.  If God says move, then we'll move.  Gotta pray about the additional security deposit.  Then again, I'm not worried, because my God provides, He always does.

CRY BABY

 

 

01.08.06

0800H

 

I should be rejoicing. I could finally rest. I could even fix my crib and I could surf the net any time I want.  The usual things I am doing before my dad and brothers arrived.

 

They left early this morning, back to California. Time swept fast. A month was over and they have no choice but to return abroad. Tears were flowing like running water into my cheeks as I saw them walking away from us. I could barely breathe.

 

I  miss them already.

 

Realization: Time is really PRECIOUS.

 

Thank you Lord Jesus for the gift called FAMILY.

WARRANTY

12.16.05

 

 ( I just remembered a conversation with a friend of mine)

 

Sweet: Malas yata talaga ako ah..badtrip!

Angelo: Bakit naman?

Sweet: talaga yatang di ako swerte sa mga gamit

Angelo: hahaha..lahat na lang nasisira noh..kagaya nang Ipod mo.( even my cellphone, my digicam etc....and i believe more to come)

Sweet: Grabe, kaya tuloy pati buhay ko magulo

Angelo: ano ka ba, MAY WARRANTY naman!

 

*The last line just left me reflecting …oo nga naman…sino nga ba ang warranty ko..Si Christ. He died for me. Hindi lang basta -bastang warranty..an assurance that whatever it is I am experiencing here on earth is nothing compare to what I can  experience in eternal life. Astig talaga si Kristo. AngWarranty ng Buhay ko.

 

St. James Overpass

12.23.05

I always wanted to take a picture of this view. It moved me in a certain way. Ewan ko ba, para kaseng everytime im passing  this bridge nahahati yong mundo ko…parang transition into somewhere else…weird talaga.