Let's Cross Over

 October 26, 2009

If I were to choose a phrase that I often use in my posts, it would be: How fast time flies

Time and time again I would suddenly realize that a week, a month or even years have passed me by. But what is it that made me write again today? Aside from browsing my old posts, well let’s just say I got tired of putting the pen on paper (how do I translate that in cyberspace jargon?)  on bitterness and the likes. Rather, I wanna inspire and excite myself with what’s in store for me NOW and in the FUTURE.

Exactly a year ago, at the same time I’m writing this now ( 7:12AM), I was staring blankly and  allowing Loneliness swallow me into a super massive black hole. I started by letting the tears creep  down my cheeks then I advanced to loud sobbing and later on I became frantic that I thought I will die anytime because of the intolerable pain I’m experiencing. I know, or so thought I knew, that I will never ever in a 100 billion light years  be able to move on. EVERYTHING that is happening to me at that moment, the anguish, I know, will NEVER go away.

Fast forward a year later, here I am. A new woman, reborn and another year have just made me stronger, I guess. When I look back, I would just laugh at myself with all the drama antics I manifested to the universe.

In the past, I would question why it happened, of all people, to me.

Today, I’m grateful to experience such emotion.

In the past, I would think I wasted my time

Today, I’m grateful I offered myself time to love and to give

I haven’t seen the NEW rainbow yet, but I’m pretty much sure I will

A year has passed, and now I’m experiencing the best thrilling wave of love. Oh yes, from my family and friends. On with the journey…on with finding small and big everyday happyness!

How fast time flies, indeed. Make the most out of it.

Now, for you my friend, if you’ve also been  through  a painful past regardless the intensity… I invite you…Attraversiamo*! 

*Attraversiamo is the Italian word for “let’s cross over” , inspired from reading Eat, Pray, Love 

Let's Cross Over

If I were to choose a phrase that I often use in my posts, it would be: How fast time flies

Time and time again I would suddenly realize that a week, a month or even years have passed me by. But what is it that made me write again today? Aside from browsing my old posts, well let’s just say I got tired of putting the pen on paper (how do I translate that in cyberspace jargon?)  on bitterness and the likes. Rather, I wanna inspire and excite myself with what’s in store for me NOW and in the FUTURE.

Exactly a year ago, at the same time I’m writing this now ( 7:12AM), I was staring blankly and  allowing Loneliness swallow me into a super massive black hole. I started by letting the tears creep  down my cheeks then I advanced to loud sobbing and later on I became frantic that I thought I will die anytime because of the intolerable pain I’m experiencing. I know, or so thought I knew, that I will never ever in a 100 billion light years  be able to move on. EVERYTHING that is happening to me at that moment, the anguish, I know, will NEVER go away.

Fast forward a year later, here I am. A new woman, reborn and another year have just made me stronger, I guess. When I look back, I would just laugh at myself with all the drama antics I manifested to the universe.  

In the past, I would question why it happened, of all people, to me.

Today, I’m grateful to experience such emotion.

In the past, I would think I wasted my time

Today, I’m grateful I offered myself time to love and to give

I haven’t seen the NEW rainbow yet, but I’m pretty much sure I will

A year has passed, and now I’m experiencing the best thrilling wave of love. Oh yes, from my family and friends. On with the journey…on with finding small and big everyday happyness!

How fast time flies, indeed. Make the most out of it.

Now, for you my friend, if you’ve also been  through  a painful past regardless the intensity… I invite you…Attraversiamo*! 

*Attraversiamo is the Italian word for “let’s cross over” , inspired from reading Eat, Pray, Love 

have you seen my friend?

Have you seen Happyness?
I think he ran out from the back door
I’m sure he’s gonna be back and bring me marshmallows
But it seems he lost his way home

Have you seen Happyness?
I think he bumped his head somewhere and got amnesia
I’m sure he’s gonna be back and take me to a hot air balloon ride
But it seems he lost his way home

Have you seen Happyness?
I think he totally forgot about me
I never heard from him ever again…

Then I looked around
I found a note and it said:
Dear Sweet,
I’m always home, look into your heart
You will find me in the depths of your soul

-Happyness

Have you seen it?

Have you seen Happyness?
I think he ran out from the back door
I’m sure he’s gonna be back and bring me marshmallows
But it seems he lost his way home

Have you seen Happyness?
I think he bumped his head somewhere and got amnesia
I’m sure he’s gonna be back and take me to a hot air balloon ride
But it seems he lost his way home

Have you seen Happyness?
I think he totally forgot about me
I never heard from him ever again…

Then I looked around
I found a note and it said:
Dear Sweet,
I’m always home, look into your heart
You will find me in the depths of your soul
-Happyness

another Filipino Hero

dear ondoy

Sept. 26, 2009 10:00AM

Masakit man sa loob kong manatili sa loob ng pamamahay, wala akong magawa sa hagupit na iyong dulot. Hinahayaan ko na lamang magmuni-muni ng nakaraan habang pinapanood ko ang galit mo. Hinahayaan ko na lamang kumalam ang sikmura sa di mo paghintulot na lumabas ako sa kawalan. Pero Ondoy....

Kahit paano'y aking naalala ang aking kabataan ng ako'y masayang naliligo sa gitna ng malakas na ulan. Tila ba isa iyong bawat patak ay nanumbalik ang kaligayang natatamo noong panahong wala pa akong problema kundi paano mananalo sa patentero o di kaya'y magwawagi sa chinese garter or jackstone.

Gustuhin ko mang itulog ang nalalabing oras ng araw ay hindi maari, nabalitaan ko na ang hagupit mo sa ibang lugar dito sa kamaynilaan :( at nakakalungkot na madaming naapektuhan, nagugutom, binabaha o di kaya nama'y nagbubuwis ng buhay

Ito na ba ang ganti ng kalikasan? Bata pa lang ako itinuturo na sa aming paaralan ang wastong pagtapon ng basura, ang masamang epekto ng pagputol ng mga puno sa kabundukan at nitong mga huli ay ang sinasabi nilang "global warming" ...madami pang iba pero sa dulo ng lahat iisa lamang ang dahilan.. ang pang aabuso sa inang kalikasan. Naalala ko pa ang mga cartolina na aking ginuguhitan at kinukulayan, mga larawan ng mundo at mga batang nag hahawak kamay, kalapating may tangay na berdeng dahon, o di kaya naman ay ang mga makabagbagdamdaming mga linya na nanghihimok na alagaan ang kalikasan.

Madaming taon na ang lumipas, naging "classic" na ang Shaider at Bioman, pati bandang Eraserheads ay bahagi na lamang ng nakaraan ngunit hindi pa din nagigising ang tao sa katotohanan na ibang magalit ang Inang Kalikasan.

Sana tama na Ondoy, itigil mo na ang pag-ulan dahil madami ng naapektuhan...

Ondoy's wrath courtesy of Pag-asa DOST

 

Little Wonders to forgive?

My mom is here in Manila and whenever she's around she'll make sure everything is spic and span. Thanks mom! =) Anyway, I found some of the VCDs I bought a few months back from a certain sale in Trinoma piled neatly on one side of my closet. I grabbed one of my fave, Meet the Robinsons ( 2007 ) and I was reminded of one song that makes me smile and transforms me on an emo mode ( slight lang).. We need to appreciate the Little Wonders around us.

Just this morning, I almost had a mild stroke ( figuratively) when the memory of my dream last night snapped into my brain cells. You know that thing when you forget what you dreamt about then suddenly remembers it at the most peculiar moment? hahaha..It was a loonnnggg dramatic, emotional dream.. hahaha.. something about forgiving someone (at first i thought it was a nightmare though...) *sigh* is it time? is it a message from Papa?I would always say that " yeah, yeah I really really forgave him na" but at the depths of my soul, really nga ba? hmm how would you know if you really forgave someone na, yung tipong wala ng bitterness, wala ng *ouch*.. I think I just did a long time ago but I wanna make sure = )


Anyway, so much for the drama.. here goes the song lyrics :)

Little Wonders
Rob Thomas

Let it go
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in
Let your clarity define you
In the end
We will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

Let it slide
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine,
Till you feel it all around you
And I don't mind
If it's me you need to turn to
We'll get by
It's the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

All of my regret
Will wash away somehow
But I cannot forget
the way I feel right now

In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Yeah, these twisted turns of fate
Time falls away
Yeah, but these small hours,
These small hours
Still remain

Yeah, oh they still remain
These little wonders
All these twists and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little wonders
Still remain

Little Wonders to forgive?

My mom is here in Manila and whenever she's around she'll make sure everything is spic and span. Thanks mom! =) Anyway, I found some of the VCDs I bought a few months back from a certain sale in Trinoma piled neatly on one side of my closet. I grabbed one of my fave, Meet the Robinsons ( 2007 ) and I was reminded of one song that makes me smile and transforms me on an emo mode ( slight lang).. We need to appreciate the Little Wonders around us.

Just this morning, I almost had a mild stroke ( figuratively) when the memory of my dream last night snapped into my brain cells. You know that thing when you forget what you dreamt about then suddenly remembers it at the most peculiar moment? hahaha..It was a loonnnggg dramatic, emotional dream.. hahaha.. something about forgiving someone (at first i thought it was a nightmare though...) *sigh* is it time? is it a message from Papa?I would always say that " yeah, yeah I really really forgave him na" but at the depths of my soul, really nga ba? hmm how would you know if you really forgave someone na, yung tipong wala ng bitterness, wala ng *ouch*.. I think I just did a long time ago but I wanna make sure = )


Anyway, so much for the drama.. here goes the song lyrics :)

Little Wonders
Rob Thomas

Let it go
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in
Let your clarity define you
In the end
We will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

Let it slide
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine,
Till you feel it all around you
And I don't mind
If it's me you need to turn to
We'll get by
It's the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

All of my regret
Will wash away somehow
But I cannot forget
the way I feel right now

In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Yeah, these twisted turns of fate
Time falls away
Yeah, but these small hours,
These small hours
Still remain

Yeah, oh they still remain
These little wonders
All these twists and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little wonders
Still remain

tsinelas

What the mind conceive.. my flip-flops will achieve

As I was strolling down in Ortigas this evening, I was suddenly reminded of my brown Havainas and never expected what had happened next...

Flashback : While we were practicing the night before Ford and May's wedding , my right flip-flop's strap was cut :_( Thanks to a nice waiter who temporarily fixed it.

When I went back to Manila, I was never reminded to buy a new pair but continue to use the old one for another week.

And it happened this evening at around 8:00PM, I suddenly told myself while walking " What if my flip-flops' strap really collapse this time"?

Yes you're right.. *tick* and the strap separated itself from my flops! Good thing I was about to ride an FX. I replaced the flip-flops with my Aerosole office shoes, the sad part..I got to walk home in high heels. ( I need a massage!)

I can see you...

Two weeks ago, 6:00 AM:

I’m trying to open my eyes but the sunlight hurts my eyes. I knew what it was… I knew this would eventually happen… I got eye infection coz of sleeping with my contacts on.:(

Today, I decided to drop by SM North to have my eyes checked again for any remnants of keratitis. I will be at the Success Seminar at the World Trade this weekend and I wanted to have my contact lens back in the game . My doctor was not around so I just set an appointed with Dr. Mario Reyes.

I greeted him with a smile as I entered his clinic, oh! He looks like my Dad  Anyway, I told him the history of my condition ( that I slept with my contacts on- ladies and gents.. that’s a NO NO!- for maybe two times in just a week) . So he had my chin placed on an eye microscope.

Doc Mario : “ Hmm, ok.. I think your eyes are good already.. blah..blah.. yada yada.. ..”

Yipee! I ‘m healed! I can now see, and I can wear my contacts this starting this weekend!

Dr. Mario also checked my pink glasses and instructed his secretary to further observe my eyes in the Perimetry room. He found out that I’m using a wrong grade of eyeglasses and contacts. It’s supposed to be 125( L) and 150 (R). I was advised to change the lenses and buy a new pair of contacts. Whether it’s a marketing strategy ( hahaha) or simply a recommendation from a doctor, I’m willing to replace it. And so I did…
Life can be the same… we may be in a journey taking a wrong path but we refuse to check if it is the same path God wants us to be but then we have to realize that God should take the wheel, He should be our map to the treasure. Sometimes, we needed to get hurt, suffer from physical, spiritual or emotional illness just like my keratitis, to realize which way to go. Once we knew it, it is insane to continue the wrong path… turn back and seek the right trail… with God. :)