I just used a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now

The salty substance running down my face pulled me back down on earth.

I can’t believe my tear ducts let loose of those tears. My knees folded and I sat down for a while scrutinizing what just happened. After I pulled myself together in a matter of seconds and in between sobs I ran to the castle’s porch looking for that shadow one last time before sunup. I beamed a smile and waved my hands to signal my gratitude.  Left with the gleaming stars, I snuffled and let those remaining tears gush down leaving watermarks on my blue pants.

I am really crying!

What I am feeling at that exact moment can never be compared to what I have experienced in the past. This is totally brand new, fresh and unfamiliar.  Another “time capsule” event I will cherish for the rest of my life.

As the sun starts to smile and before I close my eyes, I whispered a note of thanks to God. 

new found friend

A lovely treasure found ^^ Michelle Shaprow’s music. It invigorates my senses, I would love to have her complete album! Four of my faves :

1. Back Down to Earth - it clearly spoke of the things I simply wanna do today
2. Floating on the Moon - whimsical
3. Ferris Wheel-  I’ll plug my ipod with this song playing when I get the chance to ride a ferris wheel :)
4. Always Belong to You  - it’s for you my gravity

and there’s a lot more i guess, these singles were released last July 2010. I’m just getting frustrated ( lately with a lot of stuff) and  ’coz I can’t find any lyrics yet T_T . Oh well, Michelle Shaprow, welcome and get ready to color my world!

A Beautiful Tunnel

It is a common notion that most tunnels signify entrapment or imprisonment.  It may also suggest predicament that needs some enlightenment ( weird how I used words with "ment" LOL). In simple analogy a tunnel may mean, to most people, an adversity. Maybe that is why they usually say “there’s a light at the end of the tunnel”. 

But there is this unique tunnel I have discovered recently, a tunnel very near my abode. It used to be plain, dull and lifeless but just like spring it transformed into a haven.  Every morning a smile automatically emits from my lips every time I pass through it. Sometimes I would stop and lean on the tunnel’s wall, close my eyes for a few seconds and linger my fingers into the cold paint and feel the good aura it emanates. Something marvelous might have happened here; as if a good soul was left behind, I could even hear the heartbeats at times.

Ah yes! A beautiful and crazy tunnel, peculiarly I don’t wanna see the light at the end of it but stay just right there in the middle of the darkness and perhaps melt away or burst into small particles so I can infiltrate every memory it has witnessed. 

This beautiful tunnel.

RUN WITH CHARISMA - A FUNDRAISING RUN FOR MY FRIEND ON 8.15.10

Ate Donna Charisma Carreon is dear to me, in fact she is a sister to a lot of us in the chapter - Singles For Christ.  I encourage you to make a difference and join us as we Run With Charisma on August 15, 2010 at the Quezon City Memorial Circle.  She is a woman of God and a cancer warrior.

Here is an inspiring sharing from Ate Donna : http://www.sfcglobal.org/articles_details.aspx?id=190

For details please add our FB page : Run With Charisma We invite everyone to be part of a fundraising activity for Charisma Donna Carreon, Singles for Christ member and cancer warrior. 

For only P300 or P400 (includes Run with Charisma T-shirt for the first 550 runners), sign up now and run along side friends and family as we go around 3 or 5 kilometers of the Quezon City Memorial Circle on August 15, 2010.

Please contact any of the following or you can also course it thru me. Thanks!


Joyce 0915 820 5590
Jenny 0922 922 9002
Thea 0918 9200 0983 

RUN WITH CHARISMA RACE GUIDELINES


PRE-RACE CHECK-IN
• Distribution of unclaimed race kits will be on August 15, 2010 from 5:00-5:30 am only. Otherwise, please refer to “Meet Ups” schedule to secure race kits before event date.
• Assembly time is 6:00 am
• Have your race bib number marked by any of the race marshals as proof that you started at the starting line
• After marking, do not leave the starting area

BAG DEPOSITORY
Please refrain from leaving cash and other valuables inside your bags. A bag depository will be available at the assembly area. Only one bag will be accepted per participant.

RACE BIB NUMBER
• Race bib number is non-transferable
• Your race bib number must be placed visibly in front of your shirt

LOOP CORD
• Loop cords will be given along the route to ensure that you ran the correct route
• Failure to secure the required loop cords will disqualify you from finishing the race

WATER/ AID STATIONS
• Water will be provided along the route and at the finish line
• Please dispose cups properly
• Medical teams will be present along the race route and at the finish area
• Do not hesitate to approach the medical team if ever you feel the need to be attended to

FINISH LINE
• Separate chutes will be provided for each category
• Please proceed to your designated chute as you approach the finish line

OFFICIAL RESULTS
• Official results will only be available for the first few runners who finish the race
• A special prize will be given to the top 2 finishers per race category

SPECIAL PRIZES FOR TOP 2 FINISHERS

3K Men and Women
1st Placer: P1,500.00
2nd Placer: P1,000.00

5K Men and Women
1st Placer: P2,000.00
2nd Placer: P1,500.00

RAFFLE PRIZES
• Keep your race bibs after crossing the finish line
• Special prizes will be raffled off to winning race bib numbers
• Only those who are present in the assembly area may claim their raffle prize

PROTESTS
Only written protests filed within 24 hours will be entertained 

Friday the 23rd

I don't wanna go into details, recount the horrible, traumatic, heart crushing experience last July 23, 2010.
I usually hear those stories from acquaintances, rarely from close friends but on that tragic night I was, as quoted by th police at the precinct, a victim.

The whole scene ran in a very slow motion, air was sucked out of my lungs and my brain cells for a matter of seconds gone ballistic. That bastard took away Kobe, BB, Sammy, Nono that were sheltered by my Crumpler. One thing I'm so sure of after that.... I'm helpless. Actually, anyone who could have seen me on the first 30 minutes of the incident may not have recognized me. I gone mad, crying loudly, trembling frantically.

Strangers started to gather around, looking at me with pity in their eyes ( ohhh I hate that part) I flew out of the picture as fast as I can when I realized they are all bunch of useless, well... strangers.

I need someone. I can't contain my emotions. I need help. I'm gonna burst!

 In between sobs, I politely asked my new neighbor to lend me her mobile phone so I can call a friend. Thank goodness she has a genuine heart! I can't move my fingers so she dialed the numbers for me.

*Ring*  and my friend answered. I was on the brink of being ashamed of myself for disturbing my friend in the middle of a sumptuous dinner but the h*** I care, I need someone and if this someone can't help me perhaps I can drag out of my memory another friend's number. Thank goodness, he is heaven sent  and he became my messenger just like Angel Gabriel :)

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I pondered what this "crime" could have caused me... well let's put aside the tremendous money I have to earn again to be able to replace those stuff that was lost.  It brought me a brave new world, a new beginning, hence a clean slate.

A friend reminded me, God wanted me to empty my hands so I can receive more blessings. Indeed, true. I'm grateful nothing fatal happened to me. I don't have to question God why this happened, it's not because I deserve it, not because I was a plain victim of poverty in our country, it was simple reminder. Anything, anyone...nothing is permanent All can be taken away in a snap, it's all borrowed, even our own lives. Some would think that's unfair, I do at times, but at the end of it all, we shall come to our final resting place. We will all have our last breath on earth. So what do I mean? I don't wanna waste another day doing useless things, I wanna devote more time loving more people especially my family and friends and even those strangers who need help. Relationship, trust and love are built and I don't have  to wait another day to start spreading the Good news to everyone.

To the robber, how I wanted to curse you, wish you hell... but I just pray that the value of my things will be put into "good" use , let's say - feed a hungry child, cure a sick person, shelter a homeless family or whatever.

I barely slept , I'm having a hard time actually. The scene keeps coming back to me but there's no other way but forward. It was one heck of experience. But yes, lemme step forward... God prepared bigger blessings for me and I'm ready to catch it!
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Thank you

To the random angels : Ate Rhea my new neighbor for lending her phone, Gemma Garcia ( sikat na mag-gugulay sa cityhall as described to my mom) and her family who found my wallet
To my friends who prayed and empathized with me
To Reyzie, for calling my financial institutions
To Ivy and Jepoi, your voices calmed me
To Thea, Joyce, Bryan C., Joyce D.C., Jon and Don for sacrificing your time at the MMC just to be with me up until Anne and Jett arrived
To Anne and Jett, what can I do without you two that night
To my parents and siblings, I know they were worried bout what happened but their love sustains me
To my knight and shining armor that night :) my friend, Lloyd - sorry to take much of your time but appreciate your mere presence, drinking those 2 bottles of beer under the moon may have really kept me sane.
To my one and only God and His battalion of angels, who protected me from harm.


P.S. to Kobe, BB, Sammy and Nono and my Crumpler - it was a good fight, I will cherish our times together and how you have helped me. Kobe, you know almost all my secrets, BB and Sammy kept me in touch with the world, Nono for the good music we shared and to my Crumpler that survived the weather. May your new owner take good care of you. :_(

BURST

( Sudden burst of emotion)

Why do I get that feeling of boredom even before something magical could happen? 


BUT IS IT BOREDOM OR FEAR? That I have to know....

was it a mean day or a happy day?

Hormonal imbalance strikes again. I feel so devilish the whole day. Mood changes in a snap, I am ready to jump on people like a werewolf ( just kidding)

Oh well, I capped the day with a song from dongsaeng Thea..it's playing on my head while I was walking  my way home... You know that feeling that you suddenly remembered someone or something and a sudden smirk appears on your face? That's exactly how I look from the hidden camera. There are just days like these, and I don't wanna let go...



For those or us who are on the brink of something... sometimes, i guess we just need to let ourselves experience that tremendous whirl of emotions. Maybe..just maybe

Yes!

“
July 14, 2010
Dear Maurelle,
It’s final. Your dreams will come true.
Happy for you,
God
P.S. Delays don’t mean denials, Maurelle.

—I have to pick up my jaw on the floor after reading this.. Arrgghh God, You so know everything. Thank you for affirming ^_^
This message is a daily God Whisper subscription from Bo Sanchez.

Radar

Finally! After more than a year of not hitting the dance floor I was able to rekindle my affair with my first love : DANCING

Drew and I tried a HIP-HOP Class @  Brewing Point Studio last Wednesday ( thank you to a special holiday) Our teacher for that afternoon was Niko Bolante - a former member of Phil. All Star.  

Oh I really missed dancing. To be honest, I was a bit sad :(  If I would give myself a grade I would definitely get an F! My memory sucks, my moves are out of control, timing is really bad. And those kids, my classmates.. holy cow, they are way younger than me, hahahaha. No, I am not a superb dancer but I do know I can dance ( you heard that, Simon Fuller?) .

It was a good start for me, Let’s say I am just “warming-up”, I believe my mind and body will be back to it’s “normal” state again. Just give me a couple of sessions and I can loudly say  ”I m Back - and I m here to stay”

For my first session, Niko taught us dance steps to the beat of Radar by Usher ( check out the link above) I was happy to hear Niko told us some inspiring words :

“If you’ve watched Usher’s dancers, their moves and facial expressions are like of Ushers, they dance with passion.. there’s no such thing as back-up dancers… they are DANCERS…” 

Dancing, I know, will always be a part of my system. I’m no longer in my prime, I am old school. But it doesn’t mean I would just let go of it.  I will hold on to it for the mere fact that it is something I love.  Sometimes I would think - I envy my friends who pursue a dancing career, they are of course doing fantastic. But then again I realized it’s not a thing I wanna do for a living, nevertheless I would still want to dance, dance in the streets, in my room, on stage, with my idols like Justin T. and Usher but most important of all dance to glorify the Giver of talents - God. 

I woke up yesterday embracing the body aches - it is expected. In spite of that, I am excited with the next sessions. Just like finding an old friend you never had enough chance to love.

So I tell myself… Don’t just walk Sweet, Dance.

*Dear Usher, I won’t be able to watch you when you come here in PI next week, I’m in Singapore! How dare you not wait for me :_(

July

Yes! I heart July. I woke up this morning with a different kind of zest ( well, actually I have to drag my a** to the bathroom.. hahaha) Fresh start, new beginnings.. i love those stuff ( I’m zealous to start something new but very lazy to finish it.. that’s a bad trait for “Blue” people like me) 

But people are asking, So what really makes July special?  ok lemme give you some start

1. It’s the 7th month of the year( seven is a happy number for me, just like 8 and 12)

2. I’m going back to Singapore! 

3. Awesome Bootcamp in Tagaytay

4. Conference in Cavite (SFC)

5. I’m jotting down new set of resolutions ( including really really really super really decided to change my bad habits! Procrastination is on top of my list by the way)

              MY DREAMS NEED SOME ACTION, it was a bit on hiatus :(

6. I just lighted my love affair with dancing again

7. the rest.. Oh July.. surprise me!