Papa sent me a message today

I signed up to  Trulyrich Club by Bo Sanchez a few weeks ago and everyday I receive wonderful messages from,uhm well.. God. :) You get the idea, that you read different messages everyday that's probably sent to thousands of subscribers of a particular club, that one day or the other the message suits your current situation? Well, today... I really felt the message was for me! Amazing.. as if really God talked to me that way ( I am not very good at hearing God's messages that's why I sometimes end up nowhere...)!  The email goes like this:

Dear maurelle,

Today, I want you to awaken your greatness within you.  It’s just waiting
to explode.

I believe you,
God

P.S. Let it go, maurelle.  Let it go.

Those words were like bullet shot straight to my soul! Whaamm! I have been delaying some things in my life, the what if game, the "I’ll just do that tomorrow" stuffs, the laziness, the " I can't freakin’ do that- with bangin' of my head.. hehehe" and all the other queen of excuses in the universe.

Last night, I was listening to a talk, it was so great that I got excited and wanted to clap my hands and jump over and over again - I just can't do that on that moment- it is so big time destructive so I just pictured it in my mind...great things are yet to come! Today, God affirmed that.

Dear maurelle - the word "dear" means a lovable person, Oh really? Thanks Papa for calling me that way, and the word maurelle - uhmm, that's my real name.

Today, I want you to awaken your greatness within you. - Today! -Papa didn't said yesterday or tomorrow..obviously He wanted me to act NOW! The word "awaken", doesn’t mean I'll look for it, IT IS ALREADY IN ME, I just need to switch the button and KABOOM! - oohhh I can imagine myself like Edward (Twilight) in the middle of the meadows..hihihi.. and I know what He truly means.

It’s just waiting to explode. - All this time I am waiting for "right" things to fall on my lap, but I was actually sitting on it already and all I need to do is stand up and shower it to the world ( I am getting emotional now...)

I believe you,God  - Believing. Conviction. Well, I believe I can..no matter what it takes!

P.S. Let it go, maurelle.  Let it go. - And this last words... I think it have the most impact on me. I know it meant two things.. The first "let go" (for those who have been reading my blogs, you now what it means) Letting go of the "historic happenings" and second, "let go" as in unleash my power, remove the inhibitions and just be who I wanna be and follow my BIG DREAMS.

And so now, at this moment I can really say I am elated.. in trance even! hahaha...all because I know I have great powers.. not to save the cheerleader ( Heroes? sounds familiar?) but powers to share to other people around me. Let's discuss that "power" next time ok? Today, I choose to explode and let go. ( Back ground music please!)

Ok, so I woke up and realized it is December 1^st. It has been a while, just a short while after “everything” that happened. Emotions I never thought would end but God is so great He revealed things that made my moving forward easier. I still remember the day all shifted, November 17, 2008. Now I know it’s a matter of decision, some would linger for a long time but few are determined not to look back and just step forward one at a time, I know I am at the latter.

I came across this line last week on an email- “ There comes a point in your life when you realize, who matters, who never did, WHO WONT ANYMORE..and who always will. So, I wont worry about people from my past, there’s a reason why they didn’t make it to my future” Yes, a reason for everything. Some would say I am bitter with what happened, well who wouldn’t be? But I know it will all pass (very soon I could taste it!), and I will use my brokenness to heal myself, be victorious for God and perhaps just to be happy for those who’ve hurt me ( well, its just one person you knaw.. hahaha)

Back to my day, It has been a long one, thanks it is holiday though I have to work – fun work. I started with a morning chat with Ate May, a mentor, leader and a friend. Then I met Genil and Leia at Grand Terrace to finalize their wedding reception program with their wedding planner. Ohh… can’t wait to plan my own wedding when the “heaven sent” comes along. J Good thing, VS&F had their food tasting session so we jumped in and 

savor the delicious food for free *wink*. After which I met another cute couple – Gina and Rodel- who came all the way from Pangasinan! I’ve seen Lorie again, their wedding planner, almost a year after her own wedding wherein I was privileged to be their emcee. After our discussion, we finished wondering whether we ordered Ice cream or milkshake ?! ( the banana split and the mud pie ‘s ice cream is melting already when served) hehehe… then I went to Trinoma where my family is waiting for me ( Mum and my brother Prince) so we could watch “ BOLT” at the big screen. It was a fantastic movie, I laughed like a child again. It was SOOO FUNNY!

I don’t want to end the day yet so I followed to where my friends’ having some Videoke trip-at Havana. Thea, Anne, Marco and Adz were there, happily singing. I suddenly missed the old days, the G-unit days I guess. Hahaha… Thea and Anne need to go home so we were dropped at Starbucks Congressional, another lovely place we usually hang out, and after weeks I decided to get my Starbucks planner since I’ve completed the stickers already – thank you to all those who made this possible ( I just want it documented with pictures and stuff that’s why I am delaying it, but I ended up getting it anyway without any fireworks, special effects or flashes of the camera) 

I went home happy. I don’t have the exact reasons why but I felt peaceful. Then I remember the peculiar sight I saw in the sky, it is still a rewarding pursuit, the 2 stars and the moon, They’re Venus and Jupiter, and you’ll find them in a beautiful arrangement with the waxing crescent moon in the evening twilight sky. They are the brightest object in the nightsky.

image: my Starbucks planner

 A friend even told me it doesn’t happen often and it would take place again on 2052. A wonderful time to wish for love and just like a little child I closed my eyes and said my prayers. I saw God smiling and today I announce my Valediction. My farewell to my past and my hello to a new beginning, Ohhh, and I am so excited!

“ I asked God for Happiness, and He said No. I give you blessings… Happiness is up to you.”