October 26, 2009
If I were to choose a phrase that I often use in my posts, it would be: How fast time flies
Time and time again I would suddenly realize that a week, a month or even years have passed me by. But what is it that made me write again today? Aside from browsing my old posts, well let’s just say I got tired of putting the pen on paper (how do I translate that in cyberspace jargon?) on bitterness and the likes. Rather, I wanna inspire and excite myself with what’s in store for me NOW and in the FUTURE.
Exactly a year ago, at the same time I’m writing this now ( 7:12AM), I was staring blankly and allowing Loneliness swallow me into a super massive black hole. I started by letting the tears creep down my cheeks then I advanced to loud sobbing and later on I became frantic that I thought I will die anytime because of the intolerable pain I’m experiencing. I know, or so thought I knew, that I will never ever in a 100 billion light years be able to move on. EVERYTHING that is happening to me at that moment, the anguish, I know, will NEVER go away.
Fast forward a year later, here I am. A new woman, reborn and another year have just made me stronger, I guess. When I look back, I would just laugh at myself with all the drama antics I manifested to the universe.
In the past, I would question why it happened, of all people, to me.
Today, I’m grateful to experience such emotion.
In the past, I would think I wasted my time
Today, I’m grateful I offered myself time to love and to give
I haven’t seen the NEW rainbow yet, but I’m pretty much sure I will
A year has passed, and now I’m experiencing the best thrilling wave of love. Oh yes, from my family and friends. On with the journey…on with finding small and big everyday happyness!
How fast time flies, indeed. Make the most out of it.
Now, for you my friend, if you’ve also been through a painful past regardless the intensity… I invite you…Attraversiamo*!
*Attraversiamo is the Italian word for “let’s cross over” , inspired from reading Eat, Pray, Love
