Waiting for my class to start 1345H
Its been a while...time..it has been very fast and very furious...i felt very stagnant the past few weeks, my prayer time was not that good and I can just feel the emptiness. Has God abandoned me?! [ Talk about toxicity, and no doubt I am tellin you about my school (the lectures, the duty, the tests, the computations, the professors even the comfort room without water)]
It is as if i have no time for God alone, but a lot of time for other things.
But the question is, have i really felt that way? Am I really experiencing abandonement or it is just me who wants to think about that. My brain cells cannot compensate for all the questions i have in mind...
Then things came up...early this month...responsibilities came (anyway stuff like this always comes)...will i have to take it as a blessing, a challenge or a punishment? It just won't STOP.
I can still remember the lines i read in a popular Chrstian book " Purpose Driven Life" It was stated there that sometimes God make us feel alone..abandoned, as if He was not there, but the truth is He's just trying to test our FAITH.
"Faith as something we do not see yet we hope for."
So i made a desicion.I have to had a decision.
HE JUST WON'T STOP.
God will never stop loving me. Sinful and guilty as I am, He still wants me back everytime, just like the prodigal Son.
I made my first step againand started once more with my Prayer Time. One of my household friend suggested that we PRAY for our PRAYER Time. That's nice. BIG TIME!
And so holding my In His Steps, i realized, the Cover was already new, its the third quarter of the year. Yellow was still illuminating in the picture and i glanced at the title verse
" You guide me along the right path for the sake of your name" - Psalm 23: 3
No more questions asked, no more time to find the answers, every explanation is within me. I knew it. FAITH is all i need.
I was too busy feeling abandoned, but the fact is I am abundant.
For God alone is enough.
Its time. I have a class - log off but never will i shutdown.
