03.17.05 1530H
I had a very awful week..but perhaps that is to exaggerating to say because good things still happens in a very different way...i don't have enough sleep, my nerves are too tired to feel any pain, the exchange of oxygen and carbon dioxide in my blood seems to be gettin slower, my central nervous system wanted to become depressed and maybe just a few steps and i am into the lucid interval...*burst into laughter*
As i am traveling my way home, i pass through a very familiar place where i used to be goin and in the isle of the road i watched the big clock that never gets tired of telling the time.... suddenly i came to a realization...
***Beyond a wholesome discipline, I should be gentle with myself. I am a child of the universe,moreover a child of God... no less than the trees and the stars. whatever my labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, I WILL KEEP PEACE IN MY SOUL. with all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world after all. I will always be cheerful and will always strive to be HAPPY.***
You see, no matter how miserable our life is right now, you can always CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY. We should not waste our time worrying and sulking. LIFE CAN ALWAYS BE BEAUTIFUL IF WE WILL IT TO BE.
As i sat into the edge of my bed, i gave myself a tap and exhaled at least 500 ml of air forcibly out of my lungs and told my self "I AM AT PEACE" and no one can take that away from me as long as i have the God i am willing to offer my life with...as no one can surpass the life Jesus has given to us...but we should really know the purpose of our lives..
I had a long day...and iam quite apprehensive in writing my thoughts today but i believe it can help me and even those who are into the same circumstances i have been. If you felt broken and had that thought the you should start picking up the wrecked pieces of your lives, think again, for we might never been broken..because God was there and He had always beeen there, catching us in His arms everytime we begun to fall.
...(- -)zzzzZZZ as i lay down to sleep *just a nap*, i have that faith that when i wake up, everything will still be the same,nothing in particular will change except for the fact that i am much willing to keep Christ ALIVE IN MY HEART.
VIVOS EN CRISTO,
SWEET
....(in my subconcious) hmmm..and where could heaven meets earth?! i believe its the farthest place that no one can go except our own selves...its not actually a question of WHERE but WHEN...perhaps when we decided to let God rule our lives and add a dash of FAITH and TRUST that He will never forsake us.
