Invincible

It’s not  just some sort of power or what. It is a song I heard on my iTunes. Sang by Christian Bautista entitled Invincible.

Well, have you ever wished you were invincible? I remember Peter Petrilli, he has this ability in the series Heroes. But If I will to choose, I would rather want to  meet the Haitian guy and beg to remove all the unpleasant memories but I would still think twice I guess.. coz as much as I want to retain  just the wonderful memories, these..what should I call it, nightmares maybe, will make me a better woman one way  or another.

So much for that, here’s the lyrics of the song

Invincible by Christian Bautista

I don’t have nerves of steel
I have a heart that feels
I may have cried a million
tears but I wont drown
I let myself unfold
Gave you my hand to hold
You took me beyond where
I could see
And then you let go of me. .

I was damaged by the fall
Got the wind knocked out of me
To be standing here at all
I must be invincible
I thought that I would break
But now I have come to see
Something strong and beautiful
Inside of me
I must be invincible
I dont have X-rays eyes
Don’t have a heart so wise
How could I have known
you’d let me down
If I had known that then
my eyes were wide open
I still believe I would’ve risked it
There’s no way i would’ve missed it

Alone

As I sit beside my bed, I can feel that I am alone. I think it was a bad idea to skip work today, it made things worse. I cannot be alone because it’s the time that I remember every thing, every detail, and every hurt of what happened. I know I don’t deserve this, that I have to move on with life…but it seems so hard to do now. Do I really have to take in all the pain, the bad memories and some people I‘d wish never came in my life? I am scared… of the future. Terrified that there is really something wrong with me, that I am not for anyone and I am destined to be alone. My family and my friends, they will always be there but at the end of the day when we close our eyes to sleep, as we breathe in a days work and beg for a salvation from the ache we are into, does anything really matter…

want to be invincible?

It's not  just some sort of power or what. It is a song I heard on my iTunes. Sang by Christian Bautista entitled Invincible.

Well, have you ever wished you were invincible? I remember Peter Petrilli, he has this ability in the series Heroes. But If I will to choose, I would rather want to  meet the Haitian guy and beg to remove all the unpleasant memories but I would still think twice I guess.. coz as much as I want to retain  just the wonderful memories, these..what should I call it, nightmares maybe, will make me a better woman one way  or another.

So much for that, here's the lyrics of the song

Invincible by Christian Bautista

I don't have nerves of steel
I have a heart that feels
I may have cried a million
tears but I wont drown
I let myself unfold
Gave you my hand to hold
You took me beyond where
I could see
And then you let go of me. .

I was damaged by the fall
Got the wind knocked out of me
To be standing here at all
I must be invincible
I thought that I would break
But now I have come to see
Something strong and beautiful
Inside of me
I must be invincible

I dont have X-rays eyes
Don't have a heart so wise
How could I have known
you'd let me down

If I had known that then
my eyes were wide open
I still believe I would've risked it
There's no way i would've missed it

Point Blank

I am already at the point of no return.

When the one you dearly love will belong to someone else, I can’t picture the idea. Whenever I begin to think about it, everything seems to crumble, my heart, my mind and my soul. How such unsightly event could happen to me…to us.

It hurts to realize that the love you gave wasn’t given back the way you wanted it to be.

It hurts to realize that the man you thought will end up with you in an ever after wasn’t there.

It hurts to know that you gave your heart just to fall to pieces.

If I haven’t given the love

If I wasn’t expecting for an ever after

If I didn’t offer my heart

Then everything right now is not the way it should be

But here I am, helpless and never gonna save the love that vanished in the rain

Someday, I know I will write a better story

Life is full of surprises, and I never thought this can be a grandeur bolt from the blue

The man I loved, my baby… will soon *some texts deleted by the author*

And it truly broke my heart :_(

point blank

I am already at the point of no return.
When the one you dearly love will belong to someone else, I can’t picture the idea. Whenever I begin to think about it, everything seems to crumble, my heart, my mind and my soul. How such unsightly event could happen to me…to us.
It hurts to realize that the love you gave wasn’t given back the way you wanted it to be.
It hurts to realize that the man you thought will end up with you in an ever after wasn’t there.
It hurts to know that you gave your heart just to fall to pieces.
If I haven’t given the love
If I wasn’t expecting for an ever after
If I didn’t offer my heart
Then everything right now is not the way it should be
But here I am, helpless and never gonna save the love that vanished in the rain
Someday, I know I will write a better story
Life is full of surprises, and I never thought this can be a grandeur bolt from the blue

The man, my baby… will soon marry… a strange “another” woman
And it truly breaks my heart

just like the hurricane

Cause when the tears start flowin' and the wind starts blowin'
That's how you know it's comin' for you
When the rain start fallin' and you feel the pain comin'
That's how you know it's comin' for you

Just like a hurricane,
the way you broke my heart and now I'm left with the pain
After the hurricane

Blue Sky

It's always been an all time fave for me :)

BLUE SKY
Artist: Hale

When do stars fade their light?
Does the moon and the sun make it right
For you the world maybe
Like an endless storm chasing a mystery

Is there hate in your heart?
Does your body drop and tell you to stop
Loving you or loving me
When it all falls down you just sing with me

Coz there’s a blue sky waiting tomorrow
Waiting tomorrow shining and shimmering
A blue sky waiting tomorrow
Waiting tomorrow
Maybe it’s all we need

Oh don’t you wash away that smile
You just look out the window and see the light
It’s beautiful to be alive
It’s wonderful to live a life

The sun is sure to shine
For you and me for everyone
So don’t be sad it’s just the start
Of a new beginning in your life

Rain will keep on pouring
Some things you can’t control
And while the sun seems far and hard to hold
It will unfold

There will always be a blue sky
A blue sky waiting tomorrow full of hope
yeah, full of hope

If I were a Boy?

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong


But you're just a boy
You don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

( excerpt from If I Were A Boy lyrics by Beyonce) 

AND I WILL NEVER BE A BOY... BUT A GIRL WHO WILL ALWAYS LONG FOR THE RIGHT BOY TO COME - Sweet

he made history...

He won.

Why me?

It’s as if I was dreaming, I tried to contain the misery but I also want to break down and cry. Cry my heart out until I’ll be dehydrated and eventually die. Grieve over a love that was lost and perhaps would never go back again. They say “suffering occurs when we want other people to love us in the way we imagine we want to be loved, and not in the way that love should manifest itself-free and untrammeled, guiding us with it’s force and driving us on- The Zahir by Paolo Coelho ” but is it also true that we have to demand and long for a faithful love right?

Yesterday seemed to be the longest day for me this year, I would just stop and think about some things and I would sob and wipe unintentional tears. Everything seemed to be black and gray, colors where nowhere to be found. I lost it, the rainbow I was looking for and the pot of gold was not even there or I thought so it would be there.

Sometimes I would think I am selfish, at some point stupid or maybe “martyr” if this generation still use such word. I forgave easily the person I love but I wasn’t expecting it was hard to forget. Pieces of the crap that happened intermittently flashes in my mind, hunting me and questioning myself. “What the hell is wrong with me?” Why would it be me? Even though I ask, I definitely know the answers, not to the incident per se but why it was me, of all people it has been always me! Well, because I am God’s favorite and as usual I cant have any problem that I cannot handle ( easy to say but hard to accept) and I now Papa (God) is with me in my sorrows and He has greater plans on why all of these are happening not yesterday, not tomorrow but TODAY!