the bench

 

I was walking towards the park and i sat on the bench..i placed the icewater  i bought beside me and i enjoyed the ice cream I am eating...at least i enjoyed the ice cream! grr..and it all came back to me...

and the question still lingers.." why do i keep on loving you?" and whoosshh..flashback...a while ago i found myself running into a bridge away from a situation i cannot bear...just that..

I just have to be away from that scenario or else ill burst into tears or in madness? hmm...

Some people...they really are too insensitive...or am i just being so stupid..*sigh*

Thus i finished my last bite...*the icewater already melted*...and i picked it up, left the bench and went home

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.
- Dr. Meridith Grey

 

am i back?

>www.multipy.com *click*

> typed my username and password *click*

> *so here iam trying to live the normal life again after months of sacrifices*

>blog?!

> perhaps next time...

what do we have here?!

    *whoooossshhh* i got my POWERS BACK!!!
                        -hair by Menage Salon-

MANIC TUESDAY

WHoa...what a day..MAY 16,2006...24 hours and there were a lot of things that happened today:
to start ,i woke up with a not soo good news bout a friend *sniff* but then afterwards i prepared for schooll..not actually school-school but i have to furnish some important stuffs at the Philippine Regulatory Commission for me to take the June Boards..but hey i still dont have the adequate requirements so far that's why i need to go to my, should i say, 2nd alma mater...

En route manila *STATE OF SHOCK* ..of all things, i forgot my TOR receipt, i just would like to kill myself * knife please* but i realized i was already in Morayta...so i have no choice but to text my classmate and maybe perhaps a promisory note can compensate for -me being so deng stufeed- but ofcourse the registrar won't allow...*ting* " Oh well, my TOR is not yet done...perhaps 2morow.." but i dont have the "tommorrow"...i need to get it today so i can pass it "tommorrow"

*&(*&#@%&* <- that is my stomach...im hungry..and i saw my, oh well "Real Alma Mater"
" I missed FEU" *nose becoming longer*..so i thought about "TAYUMAN" the chain of carinderia inside the campus and decided to eat there, it has been a while...

So the Sanggre entered the premises...*waitahmean-it" a lot of things changed,i mean witha capital L-O-T...to cut it short, FEU has gone better than i thought...*smirk* unfair!!!

SO i toured myself...visit the CHAPEL where we usually hang out before- YFC family-
I even went to my Institute and visited some good old friends there -social stuffs...my professors, secretariat...you know what i mean...and of course ate at TAYUMAN...food haven't change..i loved the BEEF OYSTER SAUCE they got and the MELON juice..and last stop, where i usually study * yeah right* the LIBRARY..oohh yeah..where i always find my spot and then zzzZZZZZ SLEEF...hehehe...i got an ALMUNI permit to use the facilities...( i decided to study at the FEU library after reviews so i can actually FOCUS.) And my work is done at my alma mater..so much for that..

In short i got home again to fetch my oh so cute "TOR receipt" and wen back to Manila to the college of NUrsing of metropolitan hospital, and there...i stayed and waited and waited and waited until time runs out..it is 9:00 PM and they aren't releasing any of the 236 TOR!!!!
* hello!!!! anybody here* ...and praise God, they heard us and 'klabam* to my other batchmates...many got typographical errors *Helloo again...no room for errors now please*

One thing why i really love being in the community is that many Brothers and SIsters are there to help you in times of need...and i needed to notarize my stuff *time check: 9:15PM * Where in paradise would i look for a very patient attorney to get my things notarized?! * clueless*..and so i texted some and big help they did reply...but shameful of me to disturbed the attorney's peaceful rests..God heard my prayers and we found out that someone can notarize early in the morning - May 17,2006...*calmed down*

After the walk there, walk here and everywhere i finally landed at AVENETO where my very GOrgeous household is gathered...we shared fun.and oh yes i ate almost all the seafood pasta *burp* ..hehehe...at the end of the day its nice to know there are these wonderful ladies you can just sit with and just listen to their stories...

*click* Camera pose and we are done...i got another story to tell butit will be on my next multiply moment...NUMBER SEVEN..hmmm... i think i can handle that * chuckle*

Thanks for reading this far.... this is just my thing...is it long already? sorry...its just me..bloggin'..i L-O-V-E BLOGGIN'.

Goodnight!

COMA

Well it is though a medical TERM..and it is not good news to any significant other to hear such word from a medical doctor telling that a client is on COMA. That is in the medical field...

But sometimes i thought of it as a good escape..just for the meantime whenever things aren't working the way i "want" it..a hibernation thing i guess...

See, you won't be feeling anything, not even a clue of what's happening around you though the sense of hearing is still effective.DEEP COMA...that's what i need right at this very moment.

Then again..reality...i still don't want to encounter that state. I may never wake up again...

*breeze*

STILL..still!

 *sigh* just can't help but worship God whenever I am feeling anxious.Ang sarap ng feeling pag alam mong God will be there whenever you call upon His name and we just need to trust his plans for us...

Still

Words and Music by Reuben Morgan



Hide me now

Under your wings

Cover me

within your mighty hand



When the oceans rise and thunders roar

I will soar with you above the storm

Father you are king over the flood

I will be still and know you are God



Find rest my soul

In Christ alone

Know his power

In quietness and trust

 

 

A Grace

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACIE!
- i found a real sister in her...we as Sang'gres are rare species...*wink*
we could talk for hours...non- stop! I think that's one of our innate powers *confetti*
Thank God I met you!

i could still remember a year ago..well its your birthday again...how does it happened?*clueless* hehehe...iam missin you so much gurl..its been months i guess when we last saw each other...tinulugan mo me sa Capitol eh.hehe...nweiz, treat me after my boards ok? Love you!

I love this pic by the way--->

ANXIOUS ME

ang taas na ng anxiety level ko...i'll be taking up the June board exam ( pag naayos lahat ng papers) and december is not (yet) an option so far..pero im still on the process of compiling my notes...hmm...but before i officially start my review ,NUeva Ecija muna toh...so excited na talaga kami for our Kalinga Luzon. perhaps to any other blogger who'll read this blog...madami pang kasunod toh...*STRESS reliever* ko ata toh eh..hehehe...

TODAY

03.21.05 before my twisted sunshine sets down

 

Today, I found myself growing in  love with you.  Didn’t you know you are my twisted sunshine? Even just seeing you makes me smile. You steal my mind, if not occupying almost half of my lobe. I came to know you each and everyday. But the question remains, would you love me for me or more tragic never love me at all.

 

Your eyes reflect your soul. I may not always look at it at times but it doesn’t mean I lie. Perhaps I am afraid that I wouldn’t be able to see my reflection on it. But your eyes..dont you know its beautiful.

 

Your smile. It weakens me every time, praying those are for mine. It makes me feel better when I make you laugh. When can your laughter be mine? But really your smile, its beautiful.

 

Your voice. So manly yet I can sense the enthusiasm and the sincerity of it, as it  speaks a lot of things and it opens you heart to me. Loving you inch by inch…When can your voice speaks of me. But that thing, its even beautiful.

 

You. You are beautiful. I hope you knew that because I do.

 

And  You…

 

When can you love me too.

 

Perchance ever after will never come.

 

…snivel….

FINALE

0426H

and my twisted sunshine

has came to its end....